Some people are special, some people you don't want to lose...... Yak... I miss you....
I know people who will read this and hate my guts more than they already do. I know people who will read this and understand. I know other people who will read this and act as if they care….
A lot of people look at me and say WOW, this guy has very nice things going on in his life. Others wonder why I don’t focus on one thing? And some resent me for things I did or do. I can’t blame any of them, yet I wouldn't pretend I care....
I’m having this period see….a little rough it is….
I laugh in peoples’ faces everyday with hope that someday I’ll find something to be happy about. I look into peoples’ eyes, to find no comfort in any. I’m like a painting without colors, a car without gas. I am not depressed though, nor am I miserable.
There is just something missing, and I know what it is. I know it pretty well and I even know how to get it. It’s in my reach, why am I not going for it?
Maybe I’m just wrong again….
I have a to do list; big deal if I don’t do anything on it!!
An extract "....Learn Spanish, renew passport, send interns email, Kashafa (FB group & camps), Look for masters school, BNP Paribas, clean the car, GUCMUN ideas, Fundraising trips, GCBT session planning, Chocolate Timz…"
Nothing getting done....I wonder why....
Recently, I may have thrown away something very dear, something I probably won't ever find again. The question of whether that was the right thing to do remains unanswered, and I doubt it will ever be……
I don’t like how my life is going….I am losing passion for the things I like the most….and I am not doing anything about it….
I don’t like a lot of things about myself….
I am Lost….and trust me the worst thing in Life is being Lost…..period!
But the beauty about Life is that there will always be some signs to follow, some guides to lead the way….they will appear sooner or later!
I will hold on to that thought….Faith is all that is needed…
Life is Good, I truly believe that…
I don’t really want this on Facebook….maybe this post belongs to a ‘diary’ not a blog (not that I have one!)….
No more posts on Facebook….A blog is a blog....
Two sentences keep ringing in my ear, and they would make all my world right….I know it very well. I don’t know why I am not listening…..
وَمَنْ يَتَّقِ اللَّهَ يَجْعَلْ لَهُ مَخْرَجًا (2) وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ لا يَحْتَسِبُ
وَمَنْ يَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى اللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسْبُهُ إِنَّ اللَّهَ بَالِغُ أَمْرِهِ قَدْ جَعَلَ اللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدْرًا (3)3
Sometimes I pity those who deal with me daily…. :)
Over....Wa domtom....
2 comments:
I'm ready to give u my journal for a couple of days, i think you might read like full sentences that are exactly almost the same as the ones here. i don't know which category i fall into from the ones u mentioned up there and i won't think about it. Becase i DO care.
You made me stop importing my blog to facebook. You do have a point.
i haven't been reading ur enteries bsara7a.. bs i have to say i like this one...
i hope u understand that i'm not among those who pretend to care, and i don't pitty u either..
not having the answers sucks, but i might never be able to get how u don't care..
yet i honestly believe in these two lines, and i honestly believe that sincerely believing in them can actually get u through this phase...
and u should always know that u have ppl who would be more than happy to try to help, even if that is just sitting down and listening to u think out loud :)
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