I did something new today...I conquered my mood...
I simply got over it, I beat my ego…and I’m proud of it!
I actually got over the reason I got pissed off…at least I’d like to believe I did!!
I hope it’s not building up insideme though…anyway….
I have to be honest, it wasn’t intentional; it wasn’t me at least. Probably it was the company I was with…
I like them, I enjoy being with them; they cheer me up….
Coming to think of it, the did try to cheer me up, each in his own way….apparently some of them succeeded….
On another – not very related but who cares – topic, I saw that movie the other day, it was really nice. Long time since I’ve seen a really good movie; ”Up in the Air” it was called. No no…I’m not about to review a movie!!
The point is, the movie ended up on a depressing note for me; the thought of ending up alone. It made me question that, I really felt it happening to me; it got to me in a way.
The problem is I related to the guy. I am not talking about George Clooney because I am not even close, I know that and it dosn't prevent me from sleeping at night.
I am talking about the character, the loner. Lots of close friends, but none very very close. Many people in his life, very few of them really matter. The person who is hoping for change, going for it, yet accepting defeat, easily in a way….
I just related to the character… I don’t want to end up alone.
But do I have the choice? I doubt…
I got another thought right now….if I end up with someone, she will lift me up….
She will always can, no matter where we are, no matter what mood any of us is in, no matter how we are doing together, no matter what…
At any given moment…If she wants, she’ll put a smile on my face….:)