Punching Some Sand....

I am sick and tired of being nice…!

There are nice people, I know I am not nice nice…but compared to what i used to be like, I have been nicer lately….and its annoying.

You should be nice because it’s polite, it keeps your relations with people better, it helps you have a smooth day to day life. Being nice leaves a good impression with people, makes your life easier when interacting with fellow humans.

A nice person is more credible, more listened to and more respected. The term ‘nice’ implies a lot of qualities such as polite, respectful, decent and a lot more…

But nevertheless…

Sometimes I feel the urge to scream, to leave the room and bang the door, to hit someone in the face. Sometimes I want to just be alone.

I want a boxing sack, I really do. 15 minutes a day of hitting some sand would do me good, both mentally and physically. I want to get angry, no no, that i do a couple of times everyday. I want to unleash my anger. Not after I cool down and think the issue over, not after a day, not after running it through my mind…. Right away!! At the moment right when it happens, when the anger level is at its most….

I want to stop caring what people may think just for a day, I want to shout at someone at the top of my voice. I need to injure myself or break a bone. It would be great if I can be blinded with pain, deep and constant pain.

It just takes too much energy to try and be nice. And it isn’t even appreciated by anyone, so why bother?

I don’t guarantee my niceness in the near future; I’m losing my grip a little. Hopefully not too much and no serious damage will happen. I don't want to lose anyone/thing out of being stupid....

I have a lot of anger inside me, that must be unhealthy…
I think I’m gonna get a boxing sack! :D Any help??

Over....Wa domtom....